Last Wednesday March 18th I was not on speaking terms with God again. I have done this several times in my life. How long I remained on non-speaking terms depended on my circumstances and how angry I was. This is why I love having the freedom of my own personal relationship with God, one unfettered by religious fervor or mores. After all, it is considered sinful to not want to talk to God. So, here is my take. On Wednesday a horrific event befell one of my sisters. Yup, another sister. Again, this sister is easy going and easy to get along with. So, what the fuck? When I go on my "I won’t be speaking to you for a while jaunts", it is always prefaced with a rant, out loud as to why. I prefer to think that instead of having to remember WHY I did what I did on judgment day, if I SAY why I am doing it, it can prompt that much needed discussion as the big and little whys of life. After all, If You Never SAY Anything, HOW will anything EVER CHANGE? This was only a short silence on my end but I am sure God was grateful for the break. The craziest part is, a few days before this event occurred, I was overwhelmed with immense sadness, so much so that tears were rolling down my face. An Angel sat with me for hours that night. The scent was comforting, floral based but not one I am familiar with. I did thank them for their presence, could have used some of that Grace on Wednesday and Thursday. I knew something was coming, it would be bad, but not for whom. Wednesday we found out. It was far worse than I ever could imagined. So, if you feel that you have a right to be angry with God than BE ANGRY! God loves you No Matter What. God’s love for you does not have to earned, you do not have to do anything to get it and keep it, FOREVER! God Is Love. That my friend is a complete sentence. Thanks for reading.
When I think of home, I think of a place where there’s love overflowing… The Wiz For the first time in 58 years, all my sisters are Not with me. My middle sister, Lisa passed away after a valiant battle with cancer on July 31, 2014. I cannot describe the space my mind or my heart is in. There is something tangible missing, a feeling of void, unreal and unwelcome. The pain is personal, as I knew how much my baby sis was suffering, I also knew how much I would miss her gentle yet fierce spirit. As the most reserved of five sisters, she always stood up for her beliefs and spoke her truths - quietly. While the rest of us are boisterous, noisy bad assess, Lisa was never, ever that way. Good thing too, cause how much more could our home have taken had we all been that way? The service was truly a home going - the one home we can all be assured of receiving. No matter how bad things are, this is the time to focus on making the life of someone ELSE better. Now is the time when we can know with deep faith that in the end, Home is where we will all be. Thanks for reading this message. Know if you are losing or have lost a loved one, they will always be near you. Open you heart to feel their presence and your mind to acknowledge what you feel is real. Peace and love. Namaste
The challenge of living is to create the ability to feel gratitude in spite of. Indeed, how do you feel gratitude with the challenge with the loss of life, health, employment, homes or dreams? You will not and cannot unless you look at the much bigger picture. Every death is both an ending and a beginning. For those who “know,” death is only physical. Our spirits, our souls are eternal. When I weep for a loved one who has gone and left me behind, I am weeping for MYSELF. I know that, even in the midst of my pain and grief. The person I feel sorry for is ME. My beloved is well, joyous and beyond this plane, with all the hate and heartache that accompanies being human. For all other endings, what really have you lost? What? Employment? Then use this time to determine what you are supposed to be doing. What were you sent here to accomplish, what goals you set for yourself. Your challenge is to determine your next BEST move. Your home? This is a biggie with me. Because for real, I cannot offer this site, my gifts or talents from the curb, especially if I have to hold my big baby Kitty Noir. Losing a home is painful, but there are options to stop the bank from taking your home. Have you explored every one of them? Contact me, I may have some solutions you have not considered. In many instances YOU must be your own advocate. When all else fails, be grateful you had a home, even in the midst of your sadness. This goes double for negative medical diagnosis. The challenge is so many people will not question their doctors diagnosis. Your doctor works for you! Get that 2nd opinion and keep that doctor on standby. Most dis-ease start within. The more open you are to options in healthcare, the faster you will heal. If healing is not on the horizon, your attitude still makes a huge difference to the outcome and quality of your life, and the lives of those around you. You are equipped to the challenge of living. You know you are! Namaste
Sometimes a message will come my way that confirms and solidifies every single thing I have been working on releasing this year. This message from Jack is that kind of message. As with all that I share, please read (and re-read) if it resonates with you, then it is for you. If the message does not sing to your spirit, it is not because the message has no value, but your spirit is not yet ready to listen/hear/see what this messenger has to offer. No judgement ever. But please, do as I have done for decades. Never discard information not pertinent in the moment. Some messages are not meant for NOW, they are meant for Later! Enjoy and thanks for reading! Namaste Jack The Watcher - FB by Jean Rockefeller On Friday December 13, 2013 the Watchers released into the Earth a pulse of energy that was directly intended to help heal the fear of scarcity for all Kingdoms of Creation. This energy was released, under direction of the Highest of the High, 707 years and 2 months (in linear time) after the Knights Templar were rounded up en masse on Friday October 13, 1307. By removing the Knights Templar, King Philippe the Fair, removed from this planet the Protectors and the Guardians of the Divine Feminine, killing humanity's ability to remember her Divinity. Had the Templars been allowed to continue their mission, we would have a New World Order and not the New World Order that has been bastardized and controlled by the illuminati. This energy pulse was directly intended to help heal that event. Had that event not occurred in 1307, this world would be very a very different place indeed. Everything changed in that moment so long ago but so did it too change on Friday, December 13, 2013. The energy that was released on December 13 can not be simplistically explained but the predominate energy was the Divine Feminine. In addition, an energy designated to heal the fear of scarcity as well as the energy of betrayal was also included. If you wish to continue reading this enlightening Message from Jack the Watcher, please click HERE!
"Good and Evil are always at war. Good men must CHOOSE!" "A Good head and a good heart are always a formidable combination" "It always seems impossible until it’s done" Nelson Mandela from Brainy Quotes! Nelson Mandela left this earth on Thursday, December 5, 2013. While I (we all) knew it was coming, I still cried when I heard the words. This man has been amazement to me. He never let hate rule his world, his words or his actions. And by all rights, he should have been filled with rage, hate and anger. But he wasn’t. It would be trite to say he was a better man/person than I, but to say he was a better person than most would be an understatement. He understood that LOVE is all that matters, that no matter how he was treated, he would respond in love. I have been bracing myself for the next death (always in 3’s) and because Paul Walker was also a humble person, I knew it would be another LIGHT. Had no clue the light would be this BRIGHT. Such a sad day. This man was a giant among men. He lived his values and his values could model an entire world. Rest In Peace gentle warrior. He never backed down, got bitter or hateful, and lived with grace and humility. A rare soul indeed... "If one day the speed kills me, do not cry because I was smiling" Paul Walker Saturday, Paul Walker was killed in a car crash. A FAST car – Porsche 911. Many know him from the Fast and Furious franchise. But that sunny soul was much more than that. My favorite film is still 8 Below. I just love a good man/animal movie. I also love the Fast and Furious movies because, as a stick shift kinda girl, speed RULES! So, it was a pleasant surprise when I discovered he actually raced cars and the love of speed was genuine. I am sure it is why the movies were so good. There are many folks who have cars for status, have cars for transport, but in my younger days, I had cars that were fast. Got hooked on a 1994 Jetta and never looked back. The 1989 Integra was a little jet. I was really lucky not to have a ton of speeding tickets! Anyway, I digress. He also started a charity to get first responders on the ground as soon as possible after national and global disasters. Paul Walker died doing what he loved, giving back and riding in a fast car. May his good works live on in perpetuity. Thank you GOD for sharing both of these light filled souls with us. We need such people in the world, right now today. While there may not appear to be any comparison between these men, both shared humility and a love of serving others. What each of us chooses to do with our life, our lot, our talent and and our skills are the ingredients to make our world BETTER. So, today, ask yourself - WHAT am I doing to make life better for someone else? Am I doing enough? Can I do MORE? Sharing Gil Scott Heron's version of both heaven and hell on earth. Johannesburg! FREEDOM Ain't Nothing But a WORD! For those old enough to remember... Johannesburg By:Michelle D. Smith