Fighting God and Other Insanities

Last Wednesday March 18th I was not on speaking terms with God again. I have done this several times in my life. How long I remained on non-speaking terms depended on my circumstances and how angry I was. This is why I love having the freedom of my own personal relationship with God, one unfettered by religious fervor or mores. After all, it is considered sinful to not want to talk to God. Divine setting sun So, here is my take. On Wednesday a horrific event befell one of my sisters. Yup, another sister. Again, this sister is easy going and easy to get along with. So, what the fuck? When I go on my "I won’t be speaking to you for a while jaunts", it is always prefaced with a rant, out loud as to why. I prefer to think that instead of having to remember WHY I did what I did on judgment day, if I SAY why I am doing it, it can prompt that much needed discussion as the big and little whys of life. After all, If You Never SAY Anything, HOW will anything EVER CHANGE? This was only a short silence on my end but I am sure God was grateful for the break. The craziest part is, a few days before this event occurred, I was overwhelmed with immense sadness, so much so that tears were rolling down my face. An Angel sat with me for hours that night. The scent was comforting, floral based but not one I am familiar with. I did thank them for their presence, could have used some of that Grace on Wednesday and Thursday. I knew something was coming, it would be bad, but not for whom. Wednesday we found out. It was far worse than I ever could imagined. So, if you feel that you have a right to be angry with God than BE ANGRY! God loves you No Matter What. God’s love for you does not have to earned, you do not have to do anything to get it and keep it, FOREVER! God Is Love. That my friend is a complete sentence. Thanks for reading.

My Sister is Home

When I think of home, I think of a place where there’s love overflowing… The Wiz For the first time in 58 years, all my sisters are Not with me. My middle sister, Lisa passed away after a valiant battle with cancer on July 31, 2014. I cannot describe the space my mind or my heart is in. There is something tangible missing, a feeling of void, unreal and unwelcome. The pain is personal, as I knew how much my baby sis was suffering, I also knew how much I would miss her gentle yet fierce spirit. home in Bermuda As the most reserved of five sisters, she always stood up for her beliefs and spoke her truths - quietly. While the rest of us are boisterous, noisy bad assess, Lisa was never, ever that way. Good thing too, cause how much more could our home have taken had we all been that way? The service was truly a home going - the one home we can all be assured of receiving. No matter how bad things are, this is the time to focus on making the life of someone ELSE better. Now is the time when we can know with deep faith that in the end, Home is where we will all be. Thanks for reading this message. Know if you are losing or have lost a loved one, they will always be near you. Open you heart to feel their presence and your mind to acknowledge what you feel is real. Peace and love. Namaste

Remind Me Again - Spiritual Challenges

I just had this conversation with a friend of mine last week. This week I found an article on In that so nailed my spiritual challenges for the year, I laughed out loud. The title of this article is "Remind Me Again, Why did I Incarnate to this Shithole?" And my question is "I am sorry, WHY did I sign up for this bullshit YET AGAIN? WHY?" While I don't want to sound like I am whining OR judging, if you have never been in this space, you may be a little more evolved then I am. So SHARE your knowledge! What are you waiting for? We all have our challenges, spiritual, financial, health, relationships all the day long. While I understand that HOW you deal with the challenges presented you, from a spiritual tip, it gets TIRED and is damn sure trying. Here's to US - the spiritually challenged and STILL being the Light Warriors we are! ROCK ON! Remind Me Again, Why did I Incarnate to this Sh*thole? by Gregg Prescott, M.S. Did you ever wonder why you decided to incarnate to these lower vibrations of the third density? When we were back on the other side with Source, life seemed so easy. We had the answers to all universal questions and lived in the complete vibration of love. There was no dissension, hatred, ego, or financial concerns, just love. After many years of being in this vibration, you forgot what it was like to live in a 3rd dimensional vibration, yet you were fortunate enough to have been here in at least one other previous incarnation and you remembered how your spiritual progression was raised exponentially by being in a world full of duality. spiritual challenges You swore to yourself that this time, you would not allow the lower third dimensional vibrations to bring you down. You planned on bringing back the vibration of love with you to this planet, but your memories of being with Source were once again wiped from your immediate memories as the 3rd dimensional brainwashing began, yet again. From birth, you were indoctrinated into a system that promotes subservience, control and conformity. You always felt cognitive dissonance over this but weren’t sure why. It seemed like everybody else was conforming to this system and this is the way it is supposed to be. You attended school and sometimes caught yourself daydreaming as if your higher self was telling you, “A formal education is not what is important in life.” As a child, you were taught how to play sports and learned aggressive, self-serving behaviors that only reinforced the divide and conquer mentality that is forced upon us by our societal expectations. You were pacified with mundane television programs that not only took you further away from who truly are, but helped to influence what you thought, wore, ate, drank, etc.. As you grew older, you started to discover how corrupt this system has become on Earth, not only in your home country, but all over this planet. You begin to seek answers to questions that are not taught in school, such as “What is the origin of human existence?” and “Why are there so many opposing religions when there is only one Source?” You become trapped in a system that relies on monetary success in order to survive, making you an economic slave to the few that control the many. Unknowingly, you become part of that system. So, why did I decide to incarnate to this shithole? Every one of these situations gave you a chance to learn and grow spiritually. For a while, you simply forgot how these challenges would benefit you. You knew that at some point in this incarnation, you would awaken to find your true self along with your purpose for being here. It seemed so easy when you were on the other side with Source. You wanted to make millions of soul contracts because they all seemed so easy to achieve while you are in the presence of Source. Instead, you listened to Source and ended up making thousands of soul contracts, which all seemed achievable in this lifetime. Some of these soul contracts involved people who you would only meet for a brief minute, but somehow, they changed your life, or you changed theirs. They helped to lead you back to your path of enlightenment, or vice-versa. While you may never personally know these people, you were best friends with them when you were back with Source. Did you ever see someone for the first time and just know that you’ve known this person from somewhere? Chances are, you did know this person when you were back with Source. You also wanted to come back to be part of the Great Awakening. We are at a point in time where our planet is completing a 26,000 year cycle called the precession of the equinoxes. We are also at the end of a greater cycle in which our solar system has completed it revolution around its own sun in Sirius. You said to yourself, “There is no way I’m gonna miss out on this!” Besides, you forgot what it was like to experience duality and polarity. In the end, this shithole has been an amazing experienced filled with an abundance of opportunities for spiritual growth. If you decide to come back here in another incarnation, look for this article! Remember this: YOU are the light at the end of the tunnel! About the Author: Gregg Prescott, M.S. is the founder and editor of In5D and BodyMindSoulSpirit. He hosts a weekly spiritual show on In5D Radio and promotes spiritual, metaphysical and esoteric conferences in the United States through In5dEvents. Gregg is currently working in collaboration with Michelle Walling, CHLC, in opening a holistic walk-in clinic called Alternative Holistic April 21st marked the one year anniversary of the death of one of my BEST friends, Nard. It has been a spiritually challenging year for all of us. Still miss you so much.

The Challenge To Grateful Living

The challenge of living is to create the ability to feel gratitude in spite of. Indeed, how do you feel gratitude with the challenge with the loss of life, health, employment, homes or dreams? You will not and cannot unless you look at the much bigger picture. Every death is both an ending and a beginning. For those who “know,” death is only physical. Our spirits, our souls are eternal. When I weep for a loved one who has gone and left me behind, I am weeping for MYSELF. I know that, even in the midst of my pain and grief. The person I feel sorry for is ME. My beloved is well, joyous and beyond this plane, with all the hate and heartache that accompanies being human. For all other endings, what really have you lost? What? Employment? Then use this time to determine what you are supposed to be doing. What were you sent here to accomplish, what goals you set for yourself. Your challenge is to determine your next BEST move. No Challeng for this Kitty! Your home? This is a biggie with me. Because for real, I cannot offer this site, my gifts or talents from the curb, especially if I have to hold my big baby Kitty Noir. Losing a home is painful, but there are options to stop the bank from taking your home. Have you explored every one of them? Contact me, I may have some solutions you have not considered. In many instances YOU must be your own advocate. When all else fails, be grateful you had a home, even in the midst of your sadness. This goes double for negative medical diagnosis. The challenge is so many people will not question their doctors diagnosis. Your doctor works for you! Get that 2nd opinion and keep that doctor on standby. Most dis-ease start within. The more open you are to options in healthcare, the faster you will heal. If healing is not on the horizon, your attitude still makes a huge difference to the outcome and quality of your life, and the lives of those around you. You are equipped to the challenge of living. You know you are! Namaste

A Timely Message from Jack the Watcher

Sometimes a message will come my way that confirms and solidifies every single thing I have been working on releasing this year. This message from Jack is that kind of message. As with all that I share, please read (and re-read) if it resonates with you, then it is for you. If the message does not sing to your spirit, it is not because the message has no value, but your spirit is not yet ready to listen/hear/see what this messenger has to offer. No judgement ever. But please, do as I have done for decades. Never discard information not pertinent in the moment. Some messages are not meant for NOW, they are meant for Later! Enjoy and thanks for reading! Namaste Jack The Watcher - FB by Jean Rockefeller On Friday December 13, 2013 the Watchers released into the Earth a pulse of energy that was directly intended to help heal the fear of scarcity for all Kingdoms of Creation. This energy was released, under direction of the Highest of the High, 707 years and 2 months (in linear time) after the Knights Templar were rounded up en masse on Friday October 13, 1307. By removing the Knights Templar, King Philippe the Fair, removed from this planet the Protectors and the Guardians of the Divine Feminine, killing humanity's ability to remember her Divinity. Had the Templars been allowed to continue their mission, we would have a New World Order and not the New World Order that has been bastardized and controlled by the illuminati. This energy pulse was directly intended to help heal that event. Had that event not occurred in 1307, this world would be very a very different place indeed. Everything changed in that moment so long ago but so did it too change on Friday, December 13, 2013. The energy that was released on December 13 can not be simplistically explained but the predominate energy was the Divine Feminine. In addition, an energy designated to heal the fear of scarcity as well as the energy of betrayal was also included. If you wish to continue reading this enlightening Message from Jack the Watcher, please click HERE!

Grown Up or Not?

"It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are." E.E. Cummings I once asked my neighborhood “mom’” when I would “grow up.” She just shook her head, smiled and said “Baby, some of us never grow up.” I was 25 at the time, and thought I was grown but I have never been that stuck in the mud, dull, boring “old” person. Not then and sure as hell not know. It is just not in my nature to allow myself, my mind, body or spirit to become stale and stagnant. What I did not know then is being “grown up” is a society norm that demands that each and every one of us act the same way. That we all get jobs that we all “acquire” certain material things to be considered grown. Well I got the house and the car and yet, “grown up” is still not my definition of me. Perhaps it is because I still do not fit society’s standards for what an adult is. I refuse to cooperate with the powers that be who want to define me by what I have, who I love or what I do for a “living.” I am a free spirited, spiritual being, living a joyful (mostly) blessed life. Being able to appreciate this as my truth – this is my definition of growing up to become who I really am. I consider myself a lightworker and warrior for truth, in all its messy forms and fashions. I am holding on to me, the real me in defiance of what society dictates. And loving it! Namaste By:Michelle D. Smith

To Dream or Not to Dream?

"Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world." Harriet Tubman Are you a dreamer? Do you set goals that are defined by others or do you take the time to define goals for yourself? Are your goals only material, do they only benefit you or will they benefit others as well? We all know what the win/win situation is, how many of us actually use that in our everyday lives? Not just sometimes, but as often as we can remember? While the action does count, the awareness is what will change your heart, your soul, your spirit and your mentality. Only by becoming aware of when we are not acting in the highest interest of another, by calling ourselves out on our bad behavior will our behavior change. We are indeed the change we wish to see in the world (Gandhi). It starts with you and me. By:Michelle D. Smith

2 More Lights Gone From the World

"Good and Evil are always at war. Good men must CHOOSE!" "A Good head and a good heart are always a formidable combination" "It always seems impossible until it’s done" Nelson Mandela from Brainy Quotes! Nelson Mandela left this earth on Thursday, December 5, 2013. While I (we all) knew it was coming, I still cried when I heard the words. This man has been amazement to me. He never let hate rule his world, his words or his actions. And by all rights, he should have been filled with rage, hate and anger. But he wasn’t. It would be trite to say he was a better man/person than I, but to say he was a better person than most would be an understatement. He understood that LOVE is all that matters, that no matter how he was treated, he would respond in love. I have been bracing myself for the next death (always in 3’s) and because Paul Walker was also a humble person, I knew it would be another LIGHT. Had no clue the light would be this BRIGHT. Such a sad day. This man was a giant among men. He lived his values and his values could model an entire world. Rest In Peace gentle warrior. He never backed down, got bitter or hateful, and lived with grace and humility. A rare soul indeed... "If one day the speed kills me, do not cry because I was smiling" Paul Walker Saturday, Paul Walker was killed in a car crash. A FAST car – Porsche 911. Many know him from the Fast and Furious franchise. But that sunny soul was much more than that. My favorite film is still 8 Below. I just love a good man/animal movie. I also love the Fast and Furious movies because, as a stick shift kinda girl, speed RULES! So, it was a pleasant surprise when I discovered he actually raced cars and the love of speed was genuine. I am sure it is why the movies were so good. There are many folks who have cars for status, have cars for transport, but in my younger days, I had cars that were fast. Got hooked on a 1994 Jetta and never looked back. The 1989 Integra was a little jet. I was really lucky not to have a ton of speeding tickets! Anyway, I digress. He also started a charity to get first responders on the ground as soon as possible after national and global disasters. Paul Walker died doing what he loved, giving back and riding in a fast car. May his good works live on in perpetuity. Thank you GOD for sharing both of these light filled souls with us. We need such people in the world, right now today. While there may not appear to be any comparison between these men, both shared humility and a love of serving others. What each of us chooses to do with our life, our lot, our talent and and our skills are the ingredients to make our world BETTER. So, today, ask yourself - WHAT am I doing to make life better for someone else? Am I doing enough? Can I do MORE? Sharing Gil Scott Heron's version of both heaven and hell on earth. Johannesburg! FREEDOM Ain't Nothing But a WORD! For those old enough to remember... Johannesburg By:Michelle D. Smith